Is there anything scarier than being done with school and wondering what's gonna happen? What comes next? Who do I talk to? Where do I go?
I feel like when I started school I was very motivated, I had that drive you need to be successful, but throughout the 3 years of my program, i've somehow lost it. And i'm wondering if i'll ever get it back.
The major thing is, i've since realized that I don't want to work in the fashion industry, I don't even think i've ever wanted to. It just wasn't a dream I've ever really had. Why did I decide to study fashion marketing? I have no fucking idea.
So do I go back to school? I don't think so, i'll be so sick and tired by the time i'm done another program i'll lose every last bit of motivation I still possess. Or do I look around and fuck my way to the top? Hardly, if it was that easy I would have done it by now. Do I just think about it some more and get a minimum wage job to pay for my shit? If I do that, i'll get somewhat comfortable and I won't really look for anything better.
So i've come to the conclusion that I have to starve a bit to give me that extra push in the ass I need to really get my shit together and make something happen for myself, because god knows no one's gonna approach me with a job offer if they don't know i'm out there looking, and I can't depend on anyone else to do anything because it seems everyone is in the same boat. It's do or die mother fuckers, let's hope I remember how to swim!
